This post was originally written 6-18-11

There is a new game I am playing called The Waiting Game. I know many people have played this game before, but perhaps in a different version. Not everyone wants to play the game but we usually have no choice.

I have not heard much from the short term disability insurance or Social Security. I received a letter from the short term disability insurance stating that I am denied any more income unless I have more medical notes stating otherwise. I realized I had a couple pages that I never sent, so I faxed them over immediately. I called them to make sure they received the fax (because I want this over with and technology is only useful when it works properly) and they did. The caseworker asked if I had returned back to work and I replied that I had not because I was still having headaches every day. She mentioned they only allow so many disability days for headaches and she would forward the information to the reviewing group.

Also around this time, I also received a letter from Social Security addressing who is handling my case. Good to know that is finally on a roll!

As the saying goes, “When it rains, it pours.” One of my roommates (that happens to be the owner of the house) gave me notice that his girlfriend might move in and if she does, I can no longer consider myself a resident at the house. His wishes are completely understandable and usually that expected when someone has been with someone for so long. But that sucks for me! As expected, she has decided she wants to move in. Shit. I cannot find an apartment because I have no income. There are income based apartments, but I am finding that the waiting lists are six months to one year which astounds me.

Being in a pickle, I ran to my safe haven (my mother) and she said that I could not move in since my step-dad isn’t fond of my dog, it would upset their old dog, etc. She suggested that I give up Storm or let someone watch her during this challenging time. I told her I will live in my vehicle before that happens. She is the only thing I have right now. I have no income, no residence and certainly do not have my health!

I am pretty confident that I will visit my dad for some time in the cozy, little, California town called Camarillo. I cannot live there as I have tried in the past and it did not work out; I can’t stand to be that far away from my safe haven. But it is such a relaxing place. The weather is spectacular and usually never gets hot enough to turn on an air conditioner. I would be able to see my grandparents (that I have not been able to spend much time with during my childhood) as well as my awesome step-brothers and step-mom. On the side of some roads you can buy bright, red, juicy strawberries that were just hand picked. My dad also has dogs that Storm can run, jump, and play with. Which means I wont have to worry about her. I’m thinking the change of scenery might be nice.

Right now I am planning to live with my sister, Melissa, in her cramped, kid-filled trailer. It should be quite interesting seeing the last time we lived together was in high school and we were always fighting. It should also be interesting in the fact that she has three (adorable) kids and I am not used to being around kids.

I am learning so much from The Waiting Game. A major lesson learned is you find out who your true friends are and who is actually there for you. I have been disappointed from a couple people but I suppose that is to be expected.

I have my bat in place and ready for the next pitch to come my way from The Waiting Game. I can’t help but wonder if it will be a curve ball. Well, go ahead…give me your best shot!!

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